untukmu yang dapat ku pandang, namun tak dapat ku raih.

 i've never felt like this before.

you are magical.
you are my loveliest one

thank you for the heartache,
for the heartbreak,
the feeling of losing, even though i have never had you

i already lost you.

.
you'll always be in my heart, my sunflower.
the prettiest i've ever seen.

.

.

have a great life ahead. ☺

f & a.

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