a random note i made while i should be doing some beneficial things like cooking or making a business strategy
sometimes i feel like i wanna marry myself, but i sometimes i also want somebody to always be there for me, can cope with me, discuss with me, make love with me, without getting bored, it's me again, with me again. i really want to share my world with that particular person. i wanna show them. but, i told myself to not trust people. trust no one is my life motto. because people change, people leave. that's a fact. they do that all the time. i've seen a lot of stuffs caused by other people. people are evil. i don't know, with who will i get along people always leave me alone. ... at some points, i am hopeless i feel like i'm never enough 'cause i have so many flaws. but deep down, nobody's perfect, isn't it? i am still better i look like i'm fine outside nobody knows me well in my thoughts, i just wanna die i wanna die. maybe it's just me being dramatic of course i am blessed God, i am sorry i am a dumb bitch i'm so sinful, i often look at th...