enchanted

i love food, i just love them very much i am happy over the fact we can't live without food means that, we, humans and foods, bound to be together yasss as long as we're alive i have my own budget for food and feast i even making my own self-date schedule trying new foods i make a list of the foods i want to purchase food has always been a huge part of my life from the famous tuktuk (childhood) to the fact that my parents own a restaurant (growing up, until now, and until the end of time) in terms of my law degree, my thesis topic was also about FOOOODDD although i have a pretty complex relationship with food i mean, i eat almost excessively!! i can't stop eating sometimes and never even once, i escaped the day without eating a meal i love everything that is tasty and fresh like.. if we don't count the calories fucking french fries i just love them very very much also nuggets and sausages why are they considered junk food i love you so much it hurts i love those fried s...

 stress. ini aku lagi ini aku lagi stress. gitu maksudnya bertubi-tubi banget yang sedang dan akan terjadi, deep down, the root cause was... anxiety, and insecurity afraid of the things that about to happen  I can't seem to focus on my CURRENT situation I'm literally overstimulated with the news of rupiah' currency my fears of being broke (for real) the others' rage (my boss' stupid ass mouth) goodbyes (my beloved ones are off to abroad for a month) I lost my company's phone I'm running out of money I am so fat and ugly I have to repair my black heels I have to caught up with my work to do my driver is sick and it's literally contagious  I have to deal with someone I dislike and their leave permit I have to hear a news of someone's wedding my room is so messy I can't I skipped midnight prayers in three days in a row I've been so away from My Creator  if, right at this second my head will explode due all this things I had to think of maybe it ...

do you have besties? or at least one bestie well mine is this young lady who's actually very sweet and funny she's capable of loving, taking care of her family she's also wise and pamper herself very well i first met her when we were in junior high we kind of got closer by accident, and the rest is history i talk to her about literally everything she talks to me about everything too everything, shamelessly without being afraid to get judged few years back, she told me she met someone she gave me the details, including about the man himself a few points led me to conclusion that he's a walking red flag i warned her about that, she didn't listen months after, she came back and told me. they spent a nap together i said to her, "don't get too attached" again, she didn't listen months after that, she told me she found out that he's got a homegirl i was like, "if he's got a homegirl, then why he still talk to you every day?" "are y...

I want to write down my wants and ways to actually achieve that.  Because every single thing I write in here is rational and measured. 1. I want to loose weight - Intake: clean & real food only  - Sleep below 10 PM - Tomorrow: wake up at 4, go to the gym 2. I want to have a wide range of knowledge - Read books and ACTUALLY absorb the knowledge - Join seminars, sit, listen, and take notes 3. I want to be pretty and smells good - I have to be discipline with my skincare - I have to be discipline with my body care - I have to shower & wash my hair every day - Invest in great body/hair care products 4. I want to be rich - You have to create new ways of income Ideas:  - reselling/dropshipping toys posted at clearance sale sports' station - selling template/book/journal whatever through lynk.id - become shopee affiliate 5. I want to travel the world - Actually you have the money already - Plan it carefully starting with the places you want to visit the most

Hey guys here's some clarifications from my previous post in regards of TS Eras and My Life. There, i wrote: 1989 TV (October 27, 2023):  This one tho.. No... thing I guess. I was not that excited about the release of this re-recording anyway, but it produced one of my favorite Taylor Swift song; Slut! Whoop i just came back from my phone gallery and I found out that I recently came back from Pekanbaru to attend Pertamina's event during this Era.  Also on the same month we had a family gathering event at Jungleland. Fun! I got so excited editing my video on capcut. Some of the viral sounds were: DJ Malam Pagi, One of The Girls.  That's all I could remember. But in between this era and the next era, a.k.a the few last months of 2024, there was this major event; MY PKPA EVENT! November 2023, the Travel Town game gathering cards. Someone had a sleepover at my house that marked the day that I am choosing a new career path. Wow wow. And my second Umrah.. with...

Hari ini tidak seperti biasanya.. Aku yang biasanya happy , penuh dengan energi, hari ini rasanya bland , dan, lagi-lagi, aku merasa seperti manusia yang tidak berguna karena aku merasa kufur akan nikmat Tuhanku.    Entahlah apa yang aku atau pikiranku mau, Entahlah apa yang kami butuhkan. Menonton film dan bersantai? Sepertinya tidak. Lari ke tempat hiburan malam seperti yang sebelum-sebelumnya aku lakukan? Tidak, ah.  Membuka buku dan belajar hukum? Serius, aku sedang tidak ingin. Mungkin yang aku butuhkan itu.. diam.. hanya aku dan suasana yang tenang, hijau, asri.  Dengan angin yang sesekali membelai tubuhku, meniup rambutku Membayangkannya saja sebenarnya sudah bisa.. Namun jika benar merasakannya, pasti akan terasa lebih sempurna...